Making Love !

This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or otherwise, is entirely coincidental.

 
ahhh.. ahhh.. yeaahhh... moaned Divya with a heightened sense of  pleasure she had never experienced before . She lay there naked on the purple sheets in her one bedroom apartment. On top her Ayush was sweating profusely . Before they had begun ,Divya had made sure all the windows in the rooms were closed and the light was dimmed . It all seemed planned , the room , the lighting, the city, the timing everything. Still Divya was not at peace with herself.  Right now ,she could not think clearly what was wrong or right. She was doing this for the first time and wanted to do it right. Ayush handled her tenderly and finally after fifteen minutes of love making , they both were drained of every ounce of energy they had. Ayush then lit a Classic milds. Even though he had stopped smoking since Divya did not like it , she had allowed this post coital cigarette .


After the cigarette , Ayush embraced Divya in his arms and time just seemed to stand still . Part of it was due to their lack of energy and part of it was the Wish you were here playing in the background. Ayush then fetched the Tropicana guava juice they had got earlier at Reliance Fresh. They both drank like travelers on a desert and then Ayush gradually drifted into sleep. Now the guava nectar was giving Divya energy to think. She thought about what she had just done. Was it right ? Should she have gone through with it at this stage ? Was Ayush the right person to be doing this with ?  These questions kept circling in her head . She tried very hard not to think about it but she just couldn't. She needed answers and she needed them right then.


It had begun as a silly college crush . She did not like Ayush initially but his conviction and boyish charms made her come around. They had had their share of fights,arguments and days where they couldn't even look at each others' faces but they had survived and now their bond was stronger than it had ever been in  four years. The thing was that even though she knew that Ayush meant only good things for her , she could not trust him as she trusted her father or her brother. There was always a void that Ayush failed to fill . Adding to this was the fact that Divya had been raised in a very orthodox family who still clung to their caste and creed theory.  She knew marrying Ayush would be a struggle , a big struggle which would require immense convincing , emotional blackmailing , good luck among other things. What was even more difficult was the fact was that she too was orthodox at heart. True , she enjoyed the western influence on the Indian society which allowed her to be free and do things at her liking but when it came to this issue she was very sure that she was a One Man girl .

Now there was no going back. It was Ayush or no one else for her. She knew it the moment she had agreed to Ayush spending the night with her but now that the moment was actually here , it came down pretty heavily upon her. Sometimes she hated the fact that she was a girl, who had to analyze each and everything and be the more responsible gender. She then looked at Ayush and thought boys have everything so easy. He slept like a log. Either he was very sure Divya was the one for him or he was basking in glory of having just gotten laid. Ayush was not even in the picture anymore. The struggle was within.She had never imagined this would be so overwhelming.  Her glance fell on the Titan Sonata watch her dad had gifted her for her 16 th birthday. Guilty conscience had found its prey. For twenty one years your dad had raised you  like a princess and this is what you have done in return.And what your mom didn't do for you. What a sense of gratitude! she heard herself say. She couldn't bear these thoughts anymore. Tears started rolling down her cheeks. If only the earth would just open up and engulf her right there . She started weeping.She had the rest of the night to weep if she was going to marry Ayush and the rest of her life  if she didn't .